join me in making an offering to the waters under the full moon tonight.
We are funny like that, so wanting to be seen, heard and held
and constantly denying oursleves safety, connection and belonging
because we want certainty, predictability and control.
Sometimes the best thing to do when that internal protest
starts screaming is to listen -
to be okay not knowing what is coming
and to let go of the idea that we have any control at all.
Karma is the boss.
When you stop resisting the discomfort of grief
and the loss in all its many shapes and forms
then life can meet you.
Pain is a part of being human,
its the self induced suffering in the stories we tell ourselves
that need to die wise.
This is your opportunity to go deeper into surrender.
It’s Pisces — the water sign of spirituality, emotion, and dissolution.
Of contrast.
The me and the not me.
The I am that and I am not that!
We know how to breath in water, held umbilically to the Earth Mother.
She will carry you through this karmic rebirth, TRUST her.
Eclipses have their way with us regardless of what we choose -
Surrender into grace
let the water carry you.
The new reality you’re craving
— the one where you live, create, and work in alignment with your truth
— is already here.
Let everything that is not you die
and return to the earth for recycling.
Numerology of the 9:9 Portal
The number 9 is completion, karmic closure, and sacred reset.
9 is endings → emotional goodbyes that clear the path.
9 is compassion → meeting yourself in the grief and release.
9 is surrender → trusting that what dissolves is making way for truth.
9th house governed by Jupiter, seeks answers.
The Heart protector or pericardium opens the doorway of the heart for growth
It is a transitional house that develops the US-in-here concept.
Its expansion, right brain, altruistic, individuation of the heart,
On 9/9/9, we have triple amplification of these qualities and lessons
Think open heart intensity.
Resistance cracks.
Endings accelerate.
What you let die now is what will set you free.
Questions for Reflection
Where am I holding on to an old identity or reality that is collapsing?
What BS story am I telling myself to avoid feeling the pain of goodbye?
What would change if I stop fighting and let myself be carried?
Mantra for This Week
Brave heart. Loving heart. Open heart. I stop resisting. I stop forcing.
I stop chasing.
I let life meet me here. Nothing to prove
Nothing to hide
Nothing to do.
It is okay to not know.
I trust where life carries me.
Soul Prayer
May I honour the endings that strip me bare. May I stop fighting what is dissolving. May I surrender to the tide of truth. May I remember I am held, breathed through by Life itself, and carried into a reality aligned with who I am.
Watch you inbox for the next in the Anatomy of Emotion series
— I Am the Heart.
Because without an open heart, we cannot truly receive, express, or give joy.
I trust that this safe space and what I share will continue
to support you in navigating these intense times with a brave, open heart
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SARAH farrell 
